THEY WANT ME TO UP MY CALORIE INTAKE!! WTH????

so here is the deal, my scale weighs 5 lbs lighter than the dr.s office, or the dieticians office. not a big deal you say? no, not in the long run, its not. but, when you are working your ass off for every lb, it kind of is. what am i going to do about it??? well, if it was the old me, i would just go food crazy, and stop working out, out of frustration. but the new me, is taking it in stride. i am bitching about it, and i will be over it in a few.

on a good note, i am averaging 2.5 lbs lost every week. very cool.

about the title, yeah, they want me to up my caloric intake from 1000-1200 to 1200-1400. apparently when you are losing weight, and working out, your body will go into starvation mode if you arent getting enough calories. and you will stop losing weight. this is all so insane sounding to me!!! someone actually wants me to get more calories in!!! never, ever, did i think this would be said to me!!! the dietician also wants me to not think that if i eat something bad, i should hurry and go work out, because that is eating disorder style thinking! somehow, i dont think that will ever be a possibility for me.

trying to stay motivated with underactive thyroid activity

this week has been hard to get to gym, hard to get up in the mornings. i had to have some bloodwork done for my dr. appt this week. i knew i was a little more tired lately, but it seemed like as soon as they told me that my tsh levels were off, i really hit a downward spiral! weird how that happens!
i think this week was almost as hard as the first week going back to the gym. i made it to 2 rumble classes, and a zumba class, and a couple times doing cardio, but i ditched yoga altogether. not cool. now i feel guilty if i miss anything.

i am pretty sure i am hitting a plateau, it remains to be seen if its a major or minor one. after taking my rumble class today, i was talking to the instructor (he is H to the O to the T, btw), he is going to have another class after fridays rumble. it involves a lot of running, jumping jacks, and jumping rope. things i really hate to do. but i am going to do it anyway! partially bc i really want to give myself a challenge, and partially bc i really like to look at him, makes the time go fast!!!! :) who the hell invented all this jumping stuff anyway??? obviously someone who didnt have boobs!

i made it...kinda

so i made it to my halfway point, then went back up again! so i am fluctuating up and down a couple of lbs. i am trying to not let it get to me. i just keep trying new things, i did a spinning class today, and i have been doing yoga, and zumba in addition to my rumble class and cardio.

i got the results back on my bloodwork, everything looks good, except for my tsh. which is the thyroid hormone. no wonder i am so tired, i have been waiting for the awesome energy that is supposed to come with losing a bunch of weight, and it hasnt really happened yet. NO WONDER!!!!! so, i will get the directions from the doctor, and maybe in a couple weeks or so, i will be back to normal. so now i can understand why it was so easy for me to gain. i wasnt eating less than 2000 calories a day, nor working out 5 or 6 times a week, and was more tired than i am now!!! what a losing battle!!!

i think i might be driving my husband nuts, though!!! i am really loving the way i feel after working out, and i want him to feel that way too. he is not so much on board with the whole workout thing, right now.

hello jawline! hello cheekbones! hello shoulder blades!

if people could see me when i am alone, they would really wonder about me!!! i keep feeling different places, because i can feel bones now!

kind of at a standstill this week. i am sooooo close to my 60 lbs lost, i can taste it! but i didnt get a lot of working out done this weekend. i am going to have to make up for it this week.

not a lot of other things to report as of right now.