here i am one month post op! restrictions on what i can eat are gone! normally, i would be going hog wild, but given the "dumping" episode, i havent. i drink a protein drink twice a day, so i make sure i get my 60-80 grams of protein every day. i just dont want to end up bald. there are some things that i try, cucumbers with a little bit of ranch, wheat thins. the biggest difference is the amount that i eat.
i am getting ready for a huge test of willpower! chad and i are going out to eat while we are out of town tomorrow night. there is no way i can get a whole dinner to myself, so i will have to get chad to get something good, so i can have a little. the old me, just thinks about what goodies the restaurant will have, the new me, is hoping that there is something i can have!
sometimes i feel like this eating to live stuff is for the birds! but then i try on jeans, that i wasnt able to wear a couple of weeks ago, and think, yeah, okay, good choice!! i can almost see a jawline, so we are making progress albeit slowly! its so foreign to me, to not want to eat all day, and when i go to the kitchen to actually eat something, (not usually because i am hungry, but bc i know i need to eat ) nothing ever really looks good! who knows, maybe that will change, as i start eating more.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Sunday, February 21, 2010
30 lbs down, and stuck
yep, scale not really moving! but i am back at the y, so hopefully it will get things moving in the right direction.
well, i had my first "dumping" episode. chad had a double decker taco supreme, and i took a small bite, chewed it a million times, and thought it tasted soooooo good. then, a huge lump formed in my chest, and i started to get a super dry mouth, and i ran to the bathroom! it felt like i threw up a huge greaseball. so no more of that. i have 3 more days on my soft, mushy diet, but i am worried that it is going to take longer to get used to solids. chocolate goes down just fine. that may be a mixed blessing. portion control was always an issue for me, so this works out pretty well. i am too scared to take any more than a small bite.
did you ever notice how many food commercials there are? red lobster, oreos, 3 muskateers truffle crisp candy bars...is it any wonder we are such an obese nation? there are lots of people with little self-control, like me! i just hope i can take control, and make sure my kids dont end up like me!
well, i had my first "dumping" episode. chad had a double decker taco supreme, and i took a small bite, chewed it a million times, and thought it tasted soooooo good. then, a huge lump formed in my chest, and i started to get a super dry mouth, and i ran to the bathroom! it felt like i threw up a huge greaseball. so no more of that. i have 3 more days on my soft, mushy diet, but i am worried that it is going to take longer to get used to solids. chocolate goes down just fine. that may be a mixed blessing. portion control was always an issue for me, so this works out pretty well. i am too scared to take any more than a small bite.
did you ever notice how many food commercials there are? red lobster, oreos, 3 muskateers truffle crisp candy bars...is it any wonder we are such an obese nation? there are lots of people with little self-control, like me! i just hope i can take control, and make sure my kids dont end up like me!
Monday, February 15, 2010
2-15-2010
yep, feeling pretty good lately. today was chads first day back on shift. my first 24 hours alone with the kids. not too bad. i am cleaning things up around the house, chad did a pretty good job. housework really is not his area of expertise! lol, just kidding honey, you did great.
i am ready to get back to the y. i hope to get there in a day or two. try, try again! this time, i will not overdo it.
sooo, i am supposed to be on soft, mushy foods for one more week. its really hard to not try stuff though. i like to see what i can eat. i cannot eat garlic bread, thats for sure. it feels like it gets stuck in my chest. very uncomfortable. hershey kisses go down okay, though!!! i am not stupid enough to try more than one at a time, though! one or two a day, is just right.
i cant drink for 3 months after the surgery, and my friends have been going out a lot, and i have been stuck at home! :( so, i live vicariously through their pictures, and stories. when i am ready to go out, i am going to be one cheap date, though. every one drink will effect me like two or more. sooo, i wont have to spend too much money, and no more late night munchies, either. i knew this surgery was going to save me some money somewhere!
i did get to try some of chad's chili though, one of my favorites! he made a separate pan for me <3, he is so good to me!!! i love you, baby!
i am ready to get back to the y. i hope to get there in a day or two. try, try again! this time, i will not overdo it.
sooo, i am supposed to be on soft, mushy foods for one more week. its really hard to not try stuff though. i like to see what i can eat. i cannot eat garlic bread, thats for sure. it feels like it gets stuck in my chest. very uncomfortable. hershey kisses go down okay, though!!! i am not stupid enough to try more than one at a time, though! one or two a day, is just right.
i cant drink for 3 months after the surgery, and my friends have been going out a lot, and i have been stuck at home! :( so, i live vicariously through their pictures, and stories. when i am ready to go out, i am going to be one cheap date, though. every one drink will effect me like two or more. sooo, i wont have to spend too much money, and no more late night munchies, either. i knew this surgery was going to save me some money somewhere!
i did get to try some of chad's chili though, one of my favorites! he made a separate pan for me <3, he is so good to me!!! i love you, baby!
Thursday, February 11, 2010
down 25-30 lbs!
helllloooo!!!!!!!!! yes, most of that pain is gone!!! whoohoo! i was afraid it was going to last the 6-8 weeks, i usually have that kind of luck. but no, its almost all gone! yahoo!
i got up today, and i made myself some egg salad at lunch, went to the library, and pharmacy. not too much, but after a week of being laid up, it was a big outing for me.
its so hard not to keep weighing myself. i cant believe the lbs actually lost, because i cant really see much difference when i look in the mirror. but at my start weight, 25 lbs isnt that big of a difference! maybe once i can get back to the y to walk again, they will start dropping, and making an impact!
so, those who know me, know how much i love food, in its many different incarnations. yes, i have tried a few things that are not on the "soft, mushy" list that i was given to follow for the next two weeks. i have tried a tortilla chip with a smidge of salsa, i have also had a mint cookie (like girl scout thin mints), and a chocolate chip cookie. so far...no nausea! i am not sure if that is a good thing or not. knowing me, maybe not. but i dont dare eat them like i used to. one small cookie at a sitting, instead of a half of a bag! so portion control is in effect. i am still craving massimos pizza, but i am not THAT stupid to try that!!! really, i'm not!
i got up today, and i made myself some egg salad at lunch, went to the library, and pharmacy. not too much, but after a week of being laid up, it was a big outing for me.
its so hard not to keep weighing myself. i cant believe the lbs actually lost, because i cant really see much difference when i look in the mirror. but at my start weight, 25 lbs isnt that big of a difference! maybe once i can get back to the y to walk again, they will start dropping, and making an impact!
so, those who know me, know how much i love food, in its many different incarnations. yes, i have tried a few things that are not on the "soft, mushy" list that i was given to follow for the next two weeks. i have tried a tortilla chip with a smidge of salsa, i have also had a mint cookie (like girl scout thin mints), and a chocolate chip cookie. so far...no nausea! i am not sure if that is a good thing or not. knowing me, maybe not. but i dont dare eat them like i used to. one small cookie at a sitting, instead of a half of a bag! so portion control is in effect. i am still craving massimos pizza, but i am not THAT stupid to try that!!! really, i'm not!
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
2-10-2010
so, still laying around. after talking to the p.a. i found out that the pain may last 6-8 weeks. needless to say, i am probably not a lot of fun to be around right now. this is some information i would of liked to have before surgery. would it of changed my decision? i do not know. probably not, i am usually pretty hard-headed when i make up my mind about something. (not a word, chad!)
my poor husband just wants to go back to work! thats pretty bad, when he wants to go back to work, instead of being home with his loving wife!!
i am sure hoping that i can look back on this and think it was just a minor bump in the road...real soon!
my poor husband just wants to go back to work! thats pretty bad, when he wants to go back to work, instead of being home with his loving wife!!
i am sure hoping that i can look back on this and think it was just a minor bump in the road...real soon!
Saturday, February 6, 2010
11 days post op 2-6-2010
i am still nursing this side pain. this is no joke. i have had pain following surgery before, but this is a whole new level.
we are going to have to get a new recliner, as this one is going to have a permanent imprint of my body. usually when i am on the go, taking care of the kids, i would think this would be a vacation! its not. i really want to clean, and get back to normal. hallie is loving this though, she thinks it a sleepover in the living room with me. :) i am not so thrilled with her choice of t.v. shows! there is only so much teen disney, and nick that a woman can take. i need my tlc, and hgtv, and e! of course part of the reason i chose to have this surgery is to get off my butt, and do other things besides watch t.v. so not where i want to be right now.
when people tell you to take it easy after surgeries, i usually take it with a grain of salt, thinking eh-i have been down this road, i just need to get up and move around. THAT WOULD BE A BIG NO NO THIS TIME AROUND!
ok, so no more bitching. i am getting more protein, so, yay for me. got to keep those levels up, so i dont lose my hair!
i can already feel my clothes getting looser, so there are good things to report!
we are going to have to get a new recliner, as this one is going to have a permanent imprint of my body. usually when i am on the go, taking care of the kids, i would think this would be a vacation! its not. i really want to clean, and get back to normal. hallie is loving this though, she thinks it a sleepover in the living room with me. :) i am not so thrilled with her choice of t.v. shows! there is only so much teen disney, and nick that a woman can take. i need my tlc, and hgtv, and e! of course part of the reason i chose to have this surgery is to get off my butt, and do other things besides watch t.v. so not where i want to be right now.
when people tell you to take it easy after surgeries, i usually take it with a grain of salt, thinking eh-i have been down this road, i just need to get up and move around. THAT WOULD BE A BIG NO NO THIS TIME AROUND!
ok, so no more bitching. i am getting more protein, so, yay for me. got to keep those levels up, so i dont lose my hair!
i can already feel my clothes getting looser, so there are good things to report!
Thursday, February 4, 2010
i had my one week post op appt. yesterday. i am down 18 lbs! yay! i am the "model" gp patient. haha, apparently they forget how much practice i have had being a patient.
during the appt. the p.a asked me if i was having side pain, i said no, i wasnt. of course after i left the office, what did i get? you guessed it ...side pain! one of the side effects can be mild to severe pain on the left side of your belly. they have stitched the incision to my stomach muscles. whoa, whoa, whoa, when i get these "stomach muscles"??? but, yeah, it varies from mild to severe, thats for sure. i put a bag of frozen lima beans on it to help. it doesnt too much. i bet chocolate would help, but oh well, i am not ready for THAT whole issue to happen!
i am still working on getting the right amount of water, and protein. its a lot harder than it looks. next week i get to start soft, mushy foods. never has a scrambled egg sounded so good to me. or tuna, or cottage cheese. whoohooo.
whoever thinks that this is the "EASY" way out, i say HA! the easy way would be for me to continue on the same path i was going down.
during the appt. the p.a asked me if i was having side pain, i said no, i wasnt. of course after i left the office, what did i get? you guessed it ...side pain! one of the side effects can be mild to severe pain on the left side of your belly. they have stitched the incision to my stomach muscles. whoa, whoa, whoa, when i get these "stomach muscles"??? but, yeah, it varies from mild to severe, thats for sure. i put a bag of frozen lima beans on it to help. it doesnt too much. i bet chocolate would help, but oh well, i am not ready for THAT whole issue to happen!
i am still working on getting the right amount of water, and protein. its a lot harder than it looks. next week i get to start soft, mushy foods. never has a scrambled egg sounded so good to me. or tuna, or cottage cheese. whoohooo.
whoever thinks that this is the "EASY" way out, i say HA! the easy way would be for me to continue on the same path i was going down.
Monday, February 1, 2010
monday 2-1-2010
tomorrow will mark a week since i had my life-changing surgery! i cannot believe its been that long already.
i have started going to the y, to walk around the track. its pretty sad when the elderly are passing you up at least twice a lap!! i just keep on truckin' though.
i had some tomato soup today, and it was the best thing i have had in so long! i have been drinking boost protein drinks, eating jello, and fat free pudding and yogurt for 3 weeks now, so this was a wonderful departure. i am craving pizza more than anything, i really hope i can eat a little one day.
one little side effect i failed to mention, your bariatric breath!!! thank you listerine for the breath strips, actually, my husband thanks you. when you lose weight like this, the ketones (sp) are doing something, burning fat, or something like that. i swear i do pay attention when the dietician is talking! i heard that i was burning fat, and was probably just too shocked to listen to anything else, because that is such a foreign concept to me! the burning fat, not, not listening.
well, nothing too exciting to report. i am sure i will have something soon. especially after i start adding new foods to my diet.
oh yeah, liquid vicodin ROCKS!
i have started going to the y, to walk around the track. its pretty sad when the elderly are passing you up at least twice a lap!! i just keep on truckin' though.
i had some tomato soup today, and it was the best thing i have had in so long! i have been drinking boost protein drinks, eating jello, and fat free pudding and yogurt for 3 weeks now, so this was a wonderful departure. i am craving pizza more than anything, i really hope i can eat a little one day.
one little side effect i failed to mention, your bariatric breath!!! thank you listerine for the breath strips, actually, my husband thanks you. when you lose weight like this, the ketones (sp) are doing something, burning fat, or something like that. i swear i do pay attention when the dietician is talking! i heard that i was burning fat, and was probably just too shocked to listen to anything else, because that is such a foreign concept to me! the burning fat, not, not listening.
well, nothing too exciting to report. i am sure i will have something soon. especially after i start adding new foods to my diet.
oh yeah, liquid vicodin ROCKS!
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