i have been doing a lot of running, i did two miles today. i am a very slow runner, though. i am running a 12 minute mile right now, rodney wants me at an 8, in about a week or two. how the hell am i going to do that???? i guess i will just do it, that seems to be the way i am doing things now... just doing it!!!
all the little things are getting me really excited about my weight loss, but i am a little scared too. you would think that getting closer to my goal, and closer to the lowest i have weighed since all the thyroid problems started would make me super excited. it does, but there is a part of me that is terrified of actually getting there. i dont know what it is that i am so scared of, i cant really explain it. i am so happy in every aspect of my life, i am married to my best friend, i have happy, healthy children, i love my family, my friends...i could use more money, but hey, who couldnt? so getting healthy was the last puzzle piece to fit. now i am doing it, finally, after all these years, and i am scared. i am bound and determined to get down to my goal weight, maybe then i will figure out what it is that is making me afraid.